Personal Stories

A Smiling Face Doesn’t Guarantee “Happiness”

A Smiling Face Doesn’t Guarantee “Happiness”

A smiling face does not always mean that a person is happy. Smile is something that can hide anything which is going on in a person’s mind
A Walk With Imagination

A Walk With Imagination

Dear Reader, I hope you are keeping well and you aren’t taking much heed of the news these days. So what have I been doing? Well I did the most beautiful walk on an Irish trail, took in the breath-taking scenery
Echoes

Echoes

Echoes. There it is. Again. That feeling of a blackness inside. It’s an echo.  An echo of depression. Things have been good. Despite the worry of my wife’s chronic illness, its been okay
Growing up with mental illness

Growing up with mental illness

My mental health journey began at five years old. My very first teacher wrote on my school report 'anxious at times.' It set the tone for the next fifteen years
My Mental Health Story

My Mental Health Story

Hello, I’m Aoife…I’m here today To make a change To advocate for mental health. Mental Health? What’s that? Who does it effect?
“Transformation”

“Transformation”

You know that feeling? The one in your gut that is seemingly screaming at you? The one that, despite your best efforts, keeps reminding you that something is off?
The Sea Tower

The Sea Tower

She stood on the slime slick steps.  Below her, the sea surged to grab her ankles.  It was a deep green-grey colour with waves that rose and fell.  Grasping the cold, metal handrails, she gulped short, panicked breaths
The reasons I stayed alive

The reasons I stayed alive

There have been many moments in my life where I’ve asked myself, “Would anyone miss me if I was gone?” I’ve struggled with my mental health for quite a long time
Nothing to be ashamed of

Nothing to be ashamed of

Before I start my story, I am offering a major TRIGGER WARNING for self harm to those who will be reading this. I also want to send out my sympathies to those who are suffering right now
A PTSD Story

A PTSD Story

I’ll never forget the day it happened. I was walking to my car from my friend’s apartment in the middle of the night getting ready to head back home. As I was walking, I heard little footsteps behind me
Inpatient treatment

Inpatient treatment

I spent two years fighting for inpatient treatment. Two years trying to get the specialized care I knew I needed because outpatient treatment just wasn’t working. It was like I was swimming against the current
‘I am a Good Enough Person’

‘I am a Good Enough Person’

What makes some of us so super sensitive? What makes us so critical of ourselves? Hence prone to such horrendous depression and potentially suicidal thoughts
Recovery

Recovery

During the recent Mental Health Awareness Month I was asked to give a couple of interviews to the press about my mental health and how it has impact me over the years and my involvement in mental health organisations
How yoga helped me with addiction and anxiety

How yoga helped me with addiction and anxiety

I was in the middle of an intense workout session at the gym when I felt light-headed and realized that my heart was racing – almost as though it was going to pound right out of the chest
Sunshine and depression

Sunshine and depression

People talk often about being depressed at Christmas, or around New Years. The forced jollity, the smiles and happy families can often just reinforce feelings of sadness, crappy relationships, or feeling numb and unable to enjoy life
Embracing my Depression

Embracing my Depression

Picture this, circa July 2016 I’m in a London pub near Victoria Station. The pub is run by a friend of mine, an old boss in fact. But he’s not there. I’m sat at a table near an entrance. I’ve borrowed a phone charger. I’ve a pint of lager in front of me, I don’t even drink lager
‘After-thoughts – After-sharing’

‘After-thoughts – After-sharing’

That feeling of shame……….of fear………..of regret maybe……..after sharing something very personal. A redness to the cheeks. Thoughts of ‘Who is reading this?’ ‘What do they think of me now?’ ‘Maybe I should ask for this post to be taken down’
#SeeDiabetesDifferently – Living with a chronic illness

#SeeDiabetesDifferently – Living with a chronic illness

I am a person that always sees the glass half; a philosophy instilled in me by my parents when I was diagnosed with Type One Diabetes (T1D) while on holiday
Living with an Anxiety Disorder

Living with an Anxiety Disorder

In 2015 I had no idea that I was going to face my toughest challenge of my life. One night while lying in bed I started to feel worried, I started focusing on that feeling. Was there something wrong?
Honest Words – Inside Out

Honest Words – Inside Out

Hello. My name is Lorna and I am writing to share with you some thoughts and feelings that I experience on a regular basis. I really wish this was not the case…….but it is…….and I think it is important to acknowledge it
Clearing the Air and Wellbeing

Clearing the Air and Wellbeing

If you avoid conflict to keep the peace, you create a war inside. Something I have been doing most of my adult life I’m afraid. Maybe that’s one of the reasons I have mental health challenges
Suicide is not a dirty word

Suicide is not a dirty word

Suicide is not a dirty word. Nor is it a criminal act. It is the result of a fragile mind that can’t take any more pain. It is a terrifying, lonely, empty feeling that convinces the weary traveller that this is the only solution
From 15 Years Of Heroin Addiction To Author, Speaker And PhD

From 15 Years Of Heroin Addiction To Author, Speaker And PhD

I used to think I knew a lot. I didn’t. I believed my own lies, weaving an imaginary world full of delusion, denial, and deceit
Denial, Stigma & A Girl Interrupted

Denial, Stigma & A Girl Interrupted

If you find yourself in a position where you are doing all the right things, but you are still slipping, you are spiralling and you can’t stop it no matter what you seem to do, I want you to know that there is hope and there is more help
“I really loved the old you” Relationships and learning to love yourself after a bipolar diagnosis

“I really loved the old you” Relationships and learning to love yourself after a bipolar diagnosis

“I really loved the old you” were his last words as he walked out my front door, moments after breaking up with me
Facing my fears

Facing my fears

The Natural healing power of the Sea, and what it has taught me in the last four months is what I want to share with you. Nature is a power above and beyond us. Before Christmas I decided to ditch my wetsuit
The power of our mind

The power of our mind

I want to bring you in to my life and story, to share with you some insight into your own strength. How can I know you are strong? How can I know you have it in you? Allow me a little of your time here and let me share my own story
Dealing with health anxiety

Dealing with health anxiety

Don’t be so morbid. That’s what I was told one time. Imagine going about your day to day life and then you notice something. A twinge, a sensation or some other indication that something could be wrong
‘Heads Up’

‘Heads Up’

My name is Henry and I’m nearly 68 years old, born and raised in Dublin in the Inchicore and Bluebell areas and the last 40 years in Tallaght. I started work on the weekend of my 14th birthday and worked since then
Living with someone who has mental health issues

Living with someone who has mental health issues

I am a carer for my mother who has chronic depression. I had to live with this all my life. First time I realised it was a problem was when I was a teenager
Discovering the Physical illness, I had, was in fact Mental

Discovering the Physical illness, I had, was in fact Mental

I was fixated on the millions of tiny holes in the suspended ceiling tile of my office, I never noticed those holes before. It’s not the first time I was in this position
Not letting your illness own you

Not letting your illness own you

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember, to the point where I remember having a panic attack in the school yard (I could not have been more than eight at this time)
Notes To Self: You are Something

Notes To Self: You are Something

You are something. You move mountains with your courage and the generosity that lies at the core of all you do. Your timid ways are not factions, to be moulded or manipulated by others, but are powerful torrents that move people
Loving Myself Well

Loving Myself Well

With gratitude, I sit in my kitchen this Sunday morning with peace in my mind, heart and soul. It hasn’t always been like that as it has been a long road and I work hard mostly daily in order to feel this way
End of an unbeaten run

End of an unbeaten run

In a sporting context, coaches and players will hone in on momentum as the foundation of success; work hard, get the results, winning becomes a habit. For me and the squad of players inside my head winning had become a habit
Grief was the price I paid for love

Grief was the price I paid for love

It was the best of days and it was the worst of days. Sunday 4th March 2018. My birthday. Turned 42, no biggie, but a day in which I felt really content and happy with the world, with my world
Life after Suicide

Life after Suicide

I never thought I would return to writing a blog, I thought it would be a little phase in my life that came and went. Then all of a sudden, my life took a turn and crumbled underneath me. Now, I feel this weird compulsion to tell my story
Bipolar & Proud

Bipolar & Proud

Having had the desire to share my own bipolar story for a while I think today is as good a day as any to finally put pen to paper, or in correction, put fingers to keyboard. In doing so I hope sharing my experience will educated people
SUICIDE: WHAT IS IT? A mother reflects on the loss of her son

SUICIDE: WHAT IS IT? A mother reflects on the loss of her son

I have written this after losing my son Matthew in August 2016 at the young age of 25. He spent the last 3 ½ years of his life in Australia, and he loved it
Dealing with childhood trauma, and how learning about Self Care truly changed my perspective in life

Dealing with childhood trauma, and how learning about Self Care truly changed my perspective in life

Growing up Anxiety was our normal. Both my mother and father suffered from it along with their own traumas
Saying Yes to Sobriety

Saying Yes to Sobriety

In 2014, I turned forty. I’d always envisaged I’d be a skinny, coiffured, solvent, non-smoking, possibly married with at least one dependant, employed, comfortable, happy, sex bomb
This too shall pass….

This too shall pass….

When I look at her now, I realise that the very same determination which almost destroyed her young life, has got her to where she is now – a beautifully vibrant 16 year old with the world at her feet
Life through Sunglasses: My First Experience with a Psychologist

Life through Sunglasses: My First Experience with a Psychologist

I often ask for help. I look for it in family, friends and romantic partners. When all those options failed me, it was healthcare professionals’ turn
“Using warm and loving memories as fabric, I stitched together a comfort blanket”: Anxiety and Grief

“Using warm and loving memories as fabric, I stitched together a comfort blanket”: Anxiety and Grief

I remember cutting the filters off my mum's cigarettes when I was a child
Some think motivational speakers are cringeworthy: but they were just the wakeup call I needed

Some think motivational speakers are cringeworthy: but they were just the wakeup call I needed

In December of last year, I clicked on a motivational video while lazily scanning my Facebook feed
The secret miscarriages

The secret miscarriages

My wife and I had a miscarriage a few years back, and this is predominately how I came to have a better understanding of this very difficult subject. What upset me was I thought miscarriages were not that prominent
How I beat my Agoraphobia

How I beat my Agoraphobia

This is just my story, it’s a rare case but I just felt the need to share. I’ve heard a lot of other people are on SSRI’s too for depression and anxiety. It’s never something I hear other people really talk about
How to benefit from the power of common humanity

How to benefit from the power of common humanity

This is the story of how I recently overcame my feelings of wanting to lie low and nurse my stress by going into town and joining with the common humanity I found there
Inhibited Grief

Inhibited Grief

Over a year ago I fostered two little dogs who then became permanent little dogs. Lily and Tinkerbell were little old ladies who had been together their whole lives. Sadly last August Tinkerbell became gravely ill
Living with Tinnitus – How listening to my breath helped me deal with the 24/7 sound in my head

Living with Tinnitus – How listening to my breath helped me deal with the 24/7 sound in...

I’m Niamh, a mum and creative director of my own design company that I started two decades ago
I Am Not Your Advocate

I Am Not Your Advocate

A quick search for mental health related hashtags on any social media platform will produce millions of results. On Instagram alone; #depression resulted in 16.2 million posts, #anxiety 9.3 million posts and #mentalhealth 7.2 million
Working out what ‘Home’ means

Working out what ‘Home’ means

A lot has changed in my life over the last 5 years. On 3rd January 2014 my marriage ended. 17 days later my mother died and within 3 years on 12th January 2017 my father passed away
I am grateful: my mental health journey

I am grateful: my mental health journey

The other day I posted on Instagram that I might share something in the topic of mental health. Anybody who is close to me, knows that I have had my ups and downs
Beacons of light along my path

Beacons of light along my path

Dear Reader, For a long time without really knowing it there was this unknown feeling inside me. It triggers every now and then and lingers in the shadows of my mind but I have been lucky enough to find ways to whisper back
A Legacy of strength: Saying goodbye to Uncle Harry

A Legacy of strength: Saying goodbye to Uncle Harry

This time of year can be very hard especially when you've lost a loved one. Especially when you are out doing your Christmas shopping and you see something
Kind Regards, Part 4

Kind Regards, Part 4

I never disclosed the fact that I was suffering from anxiety and low mood but that’s because I didn’t feel you would understand. You certainly didn’t understand when I raised issues regarding my workload
Change

Change

If it is true, it should shout louder, yes? If it is false, to move towards it is to push against a wall? Guidelines for life when making decisions? Well I guess I am playing that out at the moment
A letter to my first love

A letter to my first love

I wrote this letter after the passing of my family dog, Sadie. It happened just one month ago and hit our family in ways we couldn’t have foreseen. In truth, we always knew Sadie was special, but it wasn’t cemented in our minds
I too thought I was invincible

I too thought I was invincible

Finding out I was pregnant with my 2nd baby came as a shock as my hubby and I were not “really trying” we were merely “waiting to see what happens”. Having suffered a miscarriage previously I feared reliving those months
This Is What Heroin Withdrawal Feels Like

This Is What Heroin Withdrawal Feels Like

It was the 10th of August 2013, and after fifteen years of chronic addiction, I had lost everything: my job, my mind, and every important relationship in my life
After hitting rock bottom I realized the only way was up!

After hitting rock bottom I realized the only way was up!

The girl in the picture yeah that’s me. The girl that everyone thinks is bubbly and always laughing like she hasn’t a care in the world. But that’s wrong… I care too much
A Night For Eoin

A Night For Eoin

Adam O’Brien tells the story of losing his brother Eoin to suicide. He’s raising funds for Pieta House to mark his brother’s 30th birthday. All funds raised from this gig with go to Pieta House who do amazing work helping people
The greatest stigma I have encountered has come from within the mental health service itself

The greatest stigma I have encountered has come from within the mental health service itself

Based on my experience, the greatest obstacle facing anyone with depression is psychiatry
Becoming self-aware and the long term effects of anti-depressant medication on my mind

Becoming self-aware and the long term effects of anti-depressant medication on my mind

I am writing this in addition to a piece I previously wrote about mental health as I feel there is a bit more I should say
Kind Regards, Part 3

Kind Regards, Part 3

Thank you for listening so well when I was struggling. Thanks for allowing me to let my guard down and be fully human at a very vulnerable time, when I was confused and anxious and scared
Kind Regards, Part 2

Kind Regards, Part 2

There was never much choice for me about whether or not to disclose my mental health issues at work. I wanted to do it because it felt like the right thing to do. I had experience of trying to cover up and hide what was going on inside
Kind Regards

Kind Regards

Thank you for being so understanding. Thank you for giving me the support I required during this particularly difficult time. Thank you for remembering all the great work I had done for you before I got sick
Life After Agoraphobia

Life After Agoraphobia

It’s now four months since I first started cracking down the 13 year steel wall of agoraphobia that had became constructed around me. It’s been surreal and a whirlwind and a journey that was a very long time coming
Battling through the days, one day at a time

Battling through the days, one day at a time

I've suffered from depression since I was 14. I can't exactly pinpoint where it all went wrong but I used to get in a lot of trouble with my teachers for 'being lazy' and not making an effort
Lessons learned from grief on my dad’s 20 year anniversary

Lessons learned from grief on my dad’s 20 year anniversary

Firstly, I want to take this chance to tell you a little bit about my dad, Seanie. He died in a tragic car accident and passed away instantly. I was 9 when he died but I have always said that I feel grateful to have had those 9 years with him
Never Give Up

Never Give Up

Life is a mystery - there are no promises, no guarantees, and we really have no idea what the future holds. Most people are fortunate enough to have hope that the future has positivity, that there is even a chance of something good happening for them
15 Years Addicted to Heroin, 5 Years Addicted to Life – Here’s What’s Changed

15 Years Addicted to Heroin, 5 Years Addicted to Life – Here’s What’s Changed

“Throw out your conceited opinions, for it is impossible for a person to begin to learn what they think they already know” — Epictetus
Thumbs Up for Benny

Thumbs Up for Benny

I’m from a family of 7. Three girls, two boys. We were brought up in the country in a beautiful home with everything we could have ever wanted and parents that loved us beyond the moon
The critic living within me

The critic living within me

It’s barely a whisper. It’s more like white noise. Echoing through my daily life. It’s as if it’s in competition with my natural state of being. It’s not a he or a she in fact I’m not entirely sure what it is
Why bother stepping outside of your Comfort Zone?

Why bother stepping outside of your Comfort Zone?

How many times have you heard yourself or others say ‘I need to step outside of my comfort zone’ or ‘I need to push past my comfort zone.’
When your mental and physical health collide Endometriosis and its impact on my mental health

When your mental and physical health collide Endometriosis and its impact on my mental health

Lying on the floor trying to catch my breath while curled up in the fetal position, rocking myself
Working in mental health services while taking anti-depressants

Working in mental health services while taking anti-depressants

I have always wanted to work in mental health, before I even knew what that meant. I wanted to work with people who were vulnerable and help them through whatever hard time
Recovery after a suicide attempt

Recovery after a suicide attempt

January 1st 2018. A new year is supposed to be a fresh start; mine didn’t work out that way. The first day of a brand-new year ended with me being taken to hospital in the back of a police car
Advice to My Graduating Niece on Handling the Problems Life Throws

Advice to My Graduating Niece on Handling the Problems Life Throws

A couple years ago, my niece was graduating, and the families of her class were asked to send cards and letters for the graduates to open on the day of graduation
A Homecoming

A Homecoming

About 6 weeks ago, I packed up my belongings and moved from my rented Drumcondra home back to my home place of Clare. This was not an easy decision – far from it – but a necessary one
How I Hacked My Vulnerability

How I Hacked My Vulnerability

Writing my feelings on the Internet helped me grow in real life. In the hallway of my condo, there’s a message on my whiteboard calendar. It reads, simply, “Be kind to yourself.” It was handwritten about a year ago
Time to Exhale – My Repeal Campaign Recovery

Time to Exhale – My Repeal Campaign Recovery

As the dust settles on an intense campaign, psychotherapist Karen Sugrue considers how she and other campaigners can manage leftover emotions and exhaustion
All those wasted hours  “What if, should have and why didn’t I?” thoughts have wasted enough hours in my life

All those wasted hours “What if, should have and why didn’t I?” thoughts have wasted enough...

Andy is the founder of the acclaimed Swirl Zine- a magazine which is an “uncomplicated, empowering guide to managing worry and rumination”
The Girl Who Has it All

The Girl Who Has it All

My first day of college at 18 years of age was not a daunting prospect, but an exhilarating one for a positive, fun-loving and friendly girl such as myself. The college life lived up to my expectations… for a while
Suicide and the mental healthcare system – Our Story

Suicide and the mental healthcare system – Our Story

I’m relatively good at biting my tongue. Perhaps that’s an exaggeration. I’ve been known to occasionally bite my tongue
What I Did When I Couldn’t Afford Therapy

What I Did When I Couldn’t Afford Therapy

It’s unfortunate that I live in a country where you have to pay to live and pay to be buried (America). I mean I get it. Doctors need to make their living, and they can’t do that by seeing patients who can’t afford to pay up
10,777 miles away from home, I finally faced my demons… but it hasn’t been without it’s struggles

10,777 miles away from home, I finally faced my demons… but it hasn’t been without it’s struggles

Content Warning: In this article, Lisa describes a period in her life where she felt suicidal, and attempted suicide, in detail
24 Hours In A&E

24 Hours In A&E

Caitriona McMahon recounts a recent visit to hospital, where medical staff failed to acknowledge her anxiety as part of her presentation. Content warning: this article contains detailed descriptions of panic attacks
Stigmatising the Stigma Surrounding Mental Illness

Stigmatising the Stigma Surrounding Mental Illness

Carly Davis writes about her struggle coming to terms with Bipolar 2 and reflects on other members of her family who may have suffered an undiagnosed mental illness
What does it feel like to have anxiety?

What does it feel like to have anxiety?

Google the term anxiety, and you'll find no shortage of symptoms. If you've never experienced an anxiety disorder, reading the symptoms alone may not give you a true insight into the way they impact people's lives
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URGENT HELP
A Lust for Life does not provide crisis support, so if you or someone you are concerned about is in crisis and needs help urgently, please contact
Pieta House
PIETA HOUSE
1800 247 247
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Childline
SAMARITANS
116 123 (ROI & UK)
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