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My anxiety and me

My anxiety and me

My heart races, thoughts are rampant coming at me from all directions, tense shoulders, on edge, my breath is faster, my fists tighter, looking for the exit, will I bolt now, breathe Darragh, for the love of God relax
Understanding Selective Mutism – How a phobia of my voice shaped my life

Understanding Selective Mutism – How a phobia of my voice shaped my life

My wedding was coming up. The choice of making a speech or not had been presented to me. I had decided to make a speech. I wanted to make a speech
Opening myself up to be vulnerable has made me a better leader

Opening myself up to be vulnerable has made me a better leader

We are all vulnerable. Fact! Vulnerability is the core of all emotions and feelings. Being vulnerable is being human. To be vulnerable is to be authentic
What I want my friends to know about my social anxiety

What I want my friends to know about my social anxiety

I’ve always been known as the shy girl; the quiet girl who was too shy to talk to new people. Growing up I was the little kid who stood behind my mother’s legs
Depression: Calling it by its proper name

Depression: Calling it by its proper name

I have depression. It has taken some 11 years to admit that. I’ve “had low mood”, “not felt great”, “not been myself”, “been low energy”, “been a bit allergic” many times. But this year, when I felt low for longer than usual
An ex-member of An Garda Síochána’s story – Post-Traumatic Stress, Bipolar and me

An ex-member of An Garda Síochána’s story – Post-Traumatic Stress, Bipolar and me

Cast your memory back to the year 2000. Were you were dancing like a Maniac to DJ Mark McCabe’s tune, working in your first job after university
Thank you Jenny Greene and the RTÉ Concert Orchestra for providing an escape from severe anxiety

Thank you Jenny Greene and the RTÉ Concert Orchestra for providing an escape from severe anxiety

Last weekend I attended my first music concert since developing Acute Anxiety Disorder some years ago
The first step: running toward mental health

The first step: running toward mental health

In university, my boyfriend Samuel and all his friends raced bicycles. It was thrilling to be around them. At the time, I didn’t quite understand why; I couldn’t have put into words that what attracted me was their focus, their confidence
Sport is key in helping me manage my mental health

Sport is key in helping me manage my mental health

I’ve always enjoyed playing sports. Ever since I was 6 years old I’ve spent countless hours running around after a ball, either for soccer or Gaelic football
6 warning signs that your substance or alcohol abuse is getting out of control

6 warning signs that your substance or alcohol abuse is getting out of control

Though there’s nothing wrong with an occasional drink every now and then, there is a very thin line between enjoying some situations with alcohol or even drugs
Surviving childhood trauma and sexual abuse

Surviving childhood trauma and sexual abuse

One of the most frequent questions I am asked when people contact our support group for adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse is, “Will you tell me when I am better?”
For anyone with trauma – A practice that helped me un-numb my pain and release it

For anyone with trauma – A practice that helped me un-numb my pain and release it

After working very intimately and personally with trauma over the past couple of years, I felt inspired to write a few words about this
The evolution of grief from losing my Dad at the age of 12

The evolution of grief from losing my Dad at the age of 12

Grief is like no other emotion I've felt because it isn't just one feeling. It's every feeling you can imagine, amplified. It can creep up on you some days in a quick burst
Knocked down by grief, I stood back up on a paddle board

Knocked down by grief, I stood back up on a paddle board

Standing on Dollymount Beach in Dublin someone asked me, how did you start paddle boarding? I didn’t know what to say… Here is the real answer
Living outside the box – No longer breaking under the weight of my past

Living outside the box – No longer breaking under the weight of my past

When I was ten years old, someone I loved gave me a box. The box confused me. It was not a box for children. For one, it was far too heavy
Depression does not discriminate

Depression does not discriminate

I was part of a loving and stable family. I was lucky to experience no trauma in my life. I was the captain of my school, club, and county. I was the leader of the Senior Concert Band. I was a young coach and referee
Therapy gave me understanding, but medication gave me control

Therapy gave me understanding, but medication gave me control

With all of the great talk about Pieta House and breaking the mental health stigmas right now I thought it would be productive to write a brief piece about my experience
Surfing the Bipolar wave

Surfing the Bipolar wave

After my last A Lust for Life article 10 upsides of Bipolar Disorder, I realised that I needed to examine the downsides too. However, this was not a dreary project as my main focus was to provide steps, hopes, and inspirations
When they found me that night, I had this note. I have rewritten it now, for you

When they found me that night, I had this note. I have rewritten it now, for you

My boyfriend and I had just been to a gig in the O2 that night. It was his birthday and I had been granted a few hours leave after a few months in the hospital
Green Ribbon Month: I thought that I was made wrong because I couldn’t feel happiness

Green Ribbon Month: I thought that I was made wrong because I couldn’t feel happiness

Zoe Alicia is an ambassador with See Change and is sharing her story in support of the Green Ribbon project
‘Someone will always care’ – Thank you to whoever left this note for me in a Dublin library

‘Someone will always care’ – Thank you to whoever left this note for me in a Dublin...

Three years ago my life changed. I was just about to turn 30, had wonderful friends and family around me and a job I loved. But something just wasn’t right
No one in Ireland should have to wait 9 months to talk to someone

No one in Ireland should have to wait 9 months to talk to someone

As someone who has suffered from General Anxiety Disorder and depression for over 10 years (most of my adult life from the age of 19 to 30 years of age)
I nearly gave up on life but I’m so glad I didn’t

I nearly gave up on life but I’m so glad I didn’t

Being able to reflect on my life now from a place of good health and wellbeing I can see how I have often taken life for granted. I can see now that I was struggling with so many aspects of my life which I ignored
Finding a deeper understanding of my OCD as a result of reaching out for help

Finding a deeper understanding of my OCD as a result of reaching out for help

From the outside I was your average male enjoyed sports, socialising and was doing well in work. On the inside, I was going through inner turmoil for many years
Even cancer roller-coaster journeys have silver linings

Even cancer roller-coaster journeys have silver linings

My breast cancer journey started back in September 2013. So as I write this article I am now ‘cancer free’ for almost 4 years
The deep loneliness of withdrawing from friends and family

The deep loneliness of withdrawing from friends and family

There has always been an air of simplicity about my presence in character. Despite the ambivertedness (qualities of both introversion and extroversion
A mindful journey with cancer – John’s story

A mindful journey with cancer – John’s story

In June of 2016, John and his wife were looking forward to celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary when he noticed a small growth on his forehead. Within three days, John was told that he had a rare form of melanoma
Accepting the duality of anxiety

Accepting the duality of anxiety

My name is Laura McMahon. I am not someone famous but I am someone you know. I am anxiety and depression personified. I own mugs that have a better handle than I do on life
Tackling anxiety and my fear of hospitals

Tackling anxiety and my fear of hospitals

It’s 10.42am as I sit in the cafe area of the University Hospital Limerick. The place is buzzing between the rattling of trolleys and the hum of conversation. I sit with the exit door strategically in sight as I double check
How LifeRing meetings nourish me and truly empower my sobriety

How LifeRing meetings nourish me and truly empower my sobriety

I’m someone like you. My life for many years revolved around having the craic. Being Irish, the craic always revolved around drink, and later drugs
How cycling can help with depression

How cycling can help with depression

Recently I was able to catch up with an old friend, and I told him that I’d started a bicycle blog. He was interested as cycling had played a significant part in shaping the person he is today
Dealing with mental illness and the financial consequences

Dealing with mental illness and the financial consequences

Illness doesn’t come cheap. It doesn’t take a genius to figure that one out whether or not you can relate it to personal experience
How I cope when struggling with anxiety and depression

How I cope when struggling with anxiety and depression

Like so many others I have come through some extremely tough times in my life, moments where I felt I had only one option
5 valuable lessons I learned when recovering from cocaine addiction

5 valuable lessons I learned when recovering from cocaine addiction

Going through addiction recovery has been up to this day the most challenging experience I’ve lived. It was also the most rewarding one
Above the blues – my mental health has made me who I am today

Above the blues – my mental health has made me who I am today

So, my story with mental health issues really began in first year. My parents started fighting a lot, I was becoming a teenager and school was a bit of a mess
3 things that helped save my life in an Adolescent Psychiatric Unit

3 things that helped save my life in an Adolescent Psychiatric Unit

A Special, that's what you’re called when you are underage and admitted to an Adult Psychiatric Unit. I was 16 years old when this name was given to me first
You’re not sick are you? My conflict with weight, medication and choosing to be healthier

You’re not sick are you? My conflict with weight, medication and choosing to be healthier

A few years ago, I was walking around my local supermarket
Loss of desire

Loss of desire

It is hard explaining depression to people who have never experienced it. It is a debilitating illness with many faces and many factors, often far too many to name
The effort is the reward

The effort is the reward

As children our musings to sport bind with wanting to be like our heroes. There's excitement in the idea of scoring goals and kicking points in front of big crowds
Accepting an Eating Disorder – A father’s perspective

Accepting an Eating Disorder – A father’s perspective

As a dad, it is often instinctive to try to “make things good”. To fix things, to make trouble go away
What not to say to someone with an eating disorder

What not to say to someone with an eating disorder

Supporting someone with an eating disorder can be a bit of a minefield. What do you say? What do you not say?
Breaking misconceptions: The man in the mirror

Breaking misconceptions: The man in the mirror

‘Why did you stop eating?’ my aunt once asked me, ‘Did you look in the mirror and see someone fat?’ Inside, I sigh
My journey of abuse, adversity and growth

My journey of abuse, adversity and growth

From four years of age, I was abused by my father. He was a controller and a bully. I have memories of beatings, sexual degradation, mind games, starvations
Dealing with my alcohol demons

Dealing with my alcohol demons

My eyes flickered open and as I turned my head towards the windows, the shaft of light that broke through the curtains blinded me. I closed my eyes, felt the heaviness of my head as I tried to lift it off the pillow
The importance of bed-making

The importance of bed-making

About a year ago, I bumped into a very dear friend one Saturday in the Milk Market (Hi Una). Now, for us and many other friends of mine, if you’re in the Milk Market in Limerick City of a bright Saturday morn
I chose life – Surviving alcoholism in a country that worships alcohol

I chose life – Surviving alcoholism in a country that worships alcohol

As Homer Simpson once quoted: “Alcohol - the cause of, and the solution to all of life’s problems”. And what a wise quote for a simple cartoon man!
10 Upsides of Bipolar!

10 Upsides of Bipolar!

As I walked the road of recovery, I began to realise how Bipolar Disorder actually graced my life. Here I share my blessings with you
Grief and the aftermath

Grief and the aftermath

My beautiful, youngest sister Von has been dead almost eighteen months now. Even reading that sentence still feels dreamlike, as if I'm reading someone else's words, but no, they're mine
Trust your gut – When I stopped looking for all the answers outside I found them within

Trust your gut – When I stopped looking for all the answers outside I found them within

I’ve come to think of my gut as an internal navigation system. In the past two years mine has been more like a driving stick or an aggressive handbrake
I sprained my mental health

I sprained my mental health

I recently sprained my mental health, twisted it badly. I'm on crutches for a couple of weeks, possibly longer. "What happened?" they said
How living with someone with depression taught me the meaning of True Love

How living with someone with depression taught me the meaning of True Love

Christmas 2015, things got really tough. I came home from abroad to spend a couple of weeks with my family and friends over the holidays
The journey of a special needs mother – My road to acceptance

The journey of a special needs mother – My road to acceptance

The anticipation - will it be a boy or a girl, who will they look like, the dreams, the hopes, please God let everything be okay. I was ten days overdue expecting my second child
When it’s not the most wonderful time of the year

When it’s not the most wonderful time of the year

I always loved Christmas as a child but like many people the novelty wore off as I grew into adulthood. Battling with Schizophrenia for years, especially in my early twenties
How sadness pushed me to be a better version of myself

How sadness pushed me to be a better version of myself

Give me a person who has lived all their life without pain and I will show you someone who is living a life deprived of self-discovery
Countless shades of grey – Is it okay to talk about sexual orientation as a mental health issue?

Countless shades of grey – Is it okay to talk about sexual orientation as a mental health...

Navigating the area of sexuality as a teenager with a traumatic history is anything but easy
Fu@k you eating disorder

Fu@k you eating disorder

When are you thin enough to have an eating disorder? How bad does it have to get? Well, let me make it easy for you, Don’t look at the size of your clothes; don’t body check
What do you do when you cry in the office?

What do you do when you cry in the office?

Can you shut the door? Is there a door to shut? Do you try to make it to the safety of a bathroom cubicle first? Are you loud? Is it muffled, silent sobbing?
My mental story

My mental story

I am a strong advocate for mental health awareness. If I were to indulge in some self-evaluation, I would characterise myself as a friendly, cheerful, social butterfly
Bottling up my sadness, grief and emotion caused my anxiety to grow – No more

Bottling up my sadness, grief and emotion caused my anxiety to grow – No more

The days are warm and Kilkenny is bustling with a mixture of tourists and everyone on holidays from school or college
How writing down my thoughts helped me renew myself after my son’s suicide

How writing down my thoughts helped me renew myself after my son’s suicide

I remember receiving my first diary. It had a green plastic cover that felt smooth to the touch as it wrapped around the pages
Practice what you preach and step outside your comfort zone

Practice what you preach and step outside your comfort zone

The morning of September 30th was different from any other morning I have ever experienced
1 year on from my cancer diagnosis – 11 powerful things I’ve learned

1 year on from my cancer diagnosis – 11 powerful things I’ve learned

A year of your life to save your life…You hear that statement quite often at the beginning, just after you get the diagnosis
Anxiety – my greatest ally in life

Anxiety – my greatest ally in life

Anxiety: It’s all about perspective. My anxiety made me quit my job. Most people will perceive this as a negative statement. Reactions such as “The poor girl, that’s awful” come to mind
The chaos and the calm

The chaos and the calm

When a tsunami of anxiety is washing over you, you wonder: “Why is this happening again?” A late morning turns into a missed day
If you are thinking of suicide, please talk to someone. It saved my life.

If you are thinking of suicide, please talk to someone. It saved my life.

I am a 31 year old man who has and does occasionally still suffer from depression. I would first start out by saying that I had a great childhood with a loving family
Self-destructive behaviour and distractions did not help my depression – Talking did

Self-destructive behaviour and distractions did not help my depression – Talking did

Four years into my depression I could write a book on self-destructive behaviour, for now I suppose I’ll settle for an article!
Why ADHD is my super power

Why ADHD is my super power

Growing up on the Isle of Mull in Scotland was idyllic. The farm we lived on had over 6 miles of rugged coastline and more trees than you could ever build tree houses. As young boys we had no such things as TV
Feeling guilt because of your anxiety

Feeling guilt because of your anxiety

Have you ever felt guilty because you have let someone down? Better still, because you have let yourself down? Most people's answer will be yes. Now, imagine feeling this guilt because of something that is out of your control
My story as a teenager coping with self-harm and anxiety

My story as a teenager coping with self-harm and anxiety

I’m 17 and have struggled with anxiety since first year. I was always a bit of a worrier, but in first year panic attacks and anxiety completely took over my life
Why I’m thankful for medication and the dangers of stopping without support

Why I’m thankful for medication and the dangers of stopping without support

Let’s take a few minutes to talk about medication. Antidepressants can be a useful tool in the battle against depression
Baring my soles – Why I’m walking around the coast of Ireland barefoot

Baring my soles – Why I’m walking around the coast of Ireland barefoot

Two and a half months ago I set off from my hometown of Claremorris in County Mayo on a trek that so far has taken me all around the southern edges of the country
Life lessons and out of body experiences: The Seoul International Marathon

Life lessons and out of body experiences: The Seoul International Marathon

The usually chock-a-block streets were cleared for competition on that March morning, the deafening sound of beeping horns replaced by uplifting cheers from friendly onlookers
To live, I had no choice but to make friends with my depression

To live, I had no choice but to make friends with my depression

As I lift my head and say a silent prayer I hope beyond hope that God is listening. I'm not very religious and definitely only go to mass when it’s expected
I’m no longer ashamed of my depression – surviving it is a massive triumph

I’m no longer ashamed of my depression – surviving it is a massive triumph

I feel it’s time to share my story in the best way I know how and that’s writing it down. I write a lot but I have never had the courage to write about this topic out of fear of the judgement
You are so much more than your mental health diagnosis

You are so much more than your mental health diagnosis

Now I knew why I had instinctively never told her about my own (Mental Health) diagnosis. In that moment though, it hit me that unless you’ve had your entirety summed up
When your high becomes your low: Life as a young footballer

When your high becomes your low: Life as a young footballer

I sat in the empty changing room. My kit was soaked through, boots and all. My body was aching like never before and there was a dull pain in my head
A Mum shares her story of postnatal depression – “You must take care of yourself.”

A Mum shares her story of postnatal depression – “You must take care of yourself.”

When my son Jamie was born, I couldn’t believe the special day was finally here and I was finally a mother. I had wanted this moment for so long
Medication and Me – My journey with anti-depressants

Medication and Me – My journey with anti-depressants

It can be hard to admit to people that, five years on, I continue to take anti-depressants daily. It’s this whole notion of recovery. The ‘No more down days, No more pills’ recovery
My rollercoaster journey towards wellness, while living with M.E.

My rollercoaster journey towards wellness, while living with M.E.

This is my story of my rollercoaster journey towards wellness, while living with a long term invisible illness and how a holistic approach helps me challenge M.E
People are still scared of mental ill-health in Ireland

People are still scared of mental ill-health in Ireland

See Change, the National Stigma Reduction Partnership and many partner organisations are rolling out a month long national Green Ribbon Campaign to get people talking
Living through the heartbreak of losing our babies

Living through the heartbreak of losing our babies

So wrote Alastair Down in his brilliant article in the Racing Post following Mouse Morris’ win in the Aintree Grand National with “Rule the World”
Healing from abuse

Healing from abuse

Last year, while working in what I thought was the quintessential 'dream job' in the film and TV industry, something overcame me - I lost all hope, felt a constant anxiety looming over me, and was struggling to function
How breaking down can save you

How breaking down can save you

At only 19 I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, and more recently with an Anxiety Disorder. Breaking down recently was the best thing to happen to me: it made me stronger
I’ve lost an entire academic year to my battle with anxiety and depression

I’ve lost an entire academic year to my battle with anxiety and depression

My second year of college wasn’t supposed to go like this. This was not what I had imagined. This was the year I was supposed to improve on the previous year’s achievements
How I manage my anxiety

How I manage my anxiety

As I begin writing this I question if I will truly be able to convey how difficult it is to manage anxiety. Until about three years ago the word anxiety didn't even feature much in my vocabulary, mainly because I didn't fully understand it
The reason I set up Taxiwatch.ie – On the outside I was smiling, on the inside I was dyingvideo

The reason I set up Taxiwatch.ie – On the outside I was smiling, on the inside I...

In 2010, life could not have been any better. I had built a new house, bought a new car and was working away happily. Then BANG! I was hit from behind by a drunk driver
Colm McCormack’s top 5 tips for training for the Beginner’s Ironmind Triathlon this July

Colm McCormack’s top 5 tips for training for the Beginner’s Ironmind Triathlon this July

It has been 5 months since I took part in the Ironmind documentary that aired on RTÉ 2
My story of healing from self harm

My story of healing from self harm

When I was 27 years old I was offered my dream job in London, which I accepted and went on to have the time of my life and make some friends that will be with me till we’re old and wrinkly
My struggle with peace of mind, before and after losing weight

My struggle with peace of mind, before and after losing weight

I’m a little bit wacky, eccentric and unreliable and at least I’m the first to admit it. I’ve always been a circle trying to fit into a square box
Pandora’s box is depression

Pandora’s box is depression

Oh no, not another article about depression, I wish it would go away. Funnily enough so do a lot of us. But it won't. It's here to stay, this 21st Century disease, or could there be signs of similar dark phantoms in the psyche of our past?
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URGENT HELP
A Lust for Life does not provide crisis support, so if you or someone you are concerned about is in crisis and needs help urgently, please contact
Pieta House
PIETA HOUSE
1800 247 247
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Childline
SAMARITANS
116 123 (ROI & UK)
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Samaritans
CHILDLINE
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